Benched...

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourself" Phillipians 2:3


This week I have felt the need to sit back and watch and wait. What am I waiting on or watching for? I don't know. I feel isolated on purpose. I find myself hiding and retreating. I am reminded of times when my girls have sat on the bench in a softball game even though they have played well and have great attitudes. To be benched is hard for them. I have always encouraged them that others need to play as well. Sometimes, we have to just step aside and let the other player become confident. Well, that is sort of how I am feeling right now...BENCHED. So I wait...and I rest...and I trust...It is hard to take a break in the game when you are used to being an ACTIVE part of the team. And the devil loves to play head games with you. BUT I will trust in God.

I am waiting...waiting on you Lord and I am hopeful...

Tonight in church I was so emotional. I don't even know why. I heard someone mention a pray request and the next thing you know my eyes are leaking. Pastor Jamie was talking about "love". This whole "love" thing is going deep inside of me. You would have thought that I would have gotten it long before. But this journey has proven to me that this love is deeper and wider than I can put my thoughts around.