But in fact God has arranged the parts of the body, every one of them just has he wanted them to be. If they were all one part where would the body be. As it is, there is many parts, but one body 1 Cor. 12: 18-20


Okay...So here we go. A new post and I am not sure what I will say...But I figure I will type and pray God brings it. I have been thinking lately how much I COULD be doing for God if I did not have a job. I have been frustrated and bored with my work. Don't get me wrong. I am not honestly discontent. If God leaves me there, there is where I will stay. BUT...If God would remember His benched servant, I would be happy to do whatever HE calls me to do. I read on someone's post recently that serving God is so much FUN!! AND IT IS!!!

I have gotten so much joy out of being a small part of HIS GIANT PLANS for the girls in my home and my church. I GET to be a part. I GET to watch kids for them, deliver a meal to them , pray for them, talk to them until late at night, laugh with them and worry for them (secretly, I try not to let them know that I worry...BUT I do). I have had to learn to cast my cares upon God for HE cares for me. His yoke is easy and his burden is light.

I have read the testimonies of so many girls and each time I get a lump in my throat knowing that they have been through SO much. It always makes me sad...those are the times I have to go to God the most. And most of the time, all I can do is cry and sit at HIS feet. Words don't come...Just tears. I know how important it is for these girls to get these awful things out and I always pray God will help me to be strong for them. God is so faithful to let me sit and cry.

BUT...God has brought these girls out of Egypt, and through the valley of shadow of death!!!! AND THEY LOVE HIM!!! And HE has put such BIG DREAMS in their hearts...And BIG GIFTS He wants to use for HIS Kingdom.

Lord, Can I just say I LOVE THAT YOU LET ME BE A PART OF YOUR KINGDOM AND YOUR PLANS!!!! If you asked me to clean toilets, I would do it. And I would smile that you ALLOWED me to. I remember the first time I got to vacuum the sanctuary and I felt so undeserving to even do that menial task...BUT GOD YOU LET ME DO IT. I did not deserve your grace then and I still don't. Thank you for loving me God and never giving up on me. .

In Your Grip of Grace,
Your Benched Servant