Who is the Potter in my life?

Today, I spent time with a difficult family member. Ever spend time with someone that just makes you feel like a complete failure? It is just never good enough? Well that was my morning. God was faithful to me. He just kept cautioning me not to take the bait. Don't let it get under my skin. Don't lash out. Don't defend yourself. Trust Him and Let Him do it. Love unconditionally. Now don't get me wrong. I am FAR from perfect and maybe they have some really valid points. But it feels more like they want to mold me rather than allow God to mold me.

So God here I am once again...And I ask you to be MY Potter and remind me that I am the clay in YOUR hands. I belong to you. I follow your lead. I trust YOU to make me in your image.

What is the purpose of a blog anyway?

So each time I think about what to blog, I think Why? Here are some of my thoughts...

I blog...

Because everyone else does
Because I want to sound wise and important
Because it is a good opportunity to journal
Because it helps me to VENT
Because ...

Why do I always look at motives? Why can't I just blog to blog? Right???

Writing and words are very important to me. If I have a vice in life, I would say it is books. I could spend a lot of money on books. Life has kept me so busy that reading has been put on the back burner. But nothing can draw me closer to God than a good inspirational book. I love poetry. I love Helen Steiner Rice...(Wow I can hear you all laughing at me now).

Sometimes I wonder what life would have been like without radios, TV, computers, phones, etc. If I could have been born in another era, I would like to have been born in the late 1800's. I love Anne of Green Gables, Little House on the Prairie, etc. I love that girls were girls and they loved to read to each other and take long walks and pick wild flowers. And I think I would like to have lived in the prairie. Life was simpler then in some ways. God was most important and people actually read their Bibles. Kids were respectful and knew how to work hard. Maybe I have romanticized this era. I am sure pioneer women had a very hard life. They died young and lost many babies, no indoor plumbing, no electricity...Okay...Maybe I should just be content where I am. Contentment with godliness is great gain...

Benched...

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourself" Phillipians 2:3


This week I have felt the need to sit back and watch and wait. What am I waiting on or watching for? I don't know. I feel isolated on purpose. I find myself hiding and retreating. I am reminded of times when my girls have sat on the bench in a softball game even though they have played well and have great attitudes. To be benched is hard for them. I have always encouraged them that others need to play as well. Sometimes, we have to just step aside and let the other player become confident. Well, that is sort of how I am feeling right now...BENCHED. So I wait...and I rest...and I trust...It is hard to take a break in the game when you are used to being an ACTIVE part of the team. And the devil loves to play head games with you. BUT I will trust in God.

I am waiting...waiting on you Lord and I am hopeful...

Tonight in church I was so emotional. I don't even know why. I heard someone mention a pray request and the next thing you know my eyes are leaking. Pastor Jamie was talking about "love". This whole "love" thing is going deep inside of me. You would have thought that I would have gotten it long before. But this journey has proven to me that this love is deeper and wider than I can put my thoughts around.

Thankful Thursday

I am so thankful for...

My husband who is steady, dependable, funny, patient and kind. Who cares if he plays his video games too much. Everyone needs a break from all the estrogen in our house. Poor Man!

Alicia the Ace student, worker, wife, and daughter. Thank you Lord that she is steady like her daddy and gentle and kind and intelligent like her mother...LOL. Just kidding. But she is all those things.

Sara the Sparkler who is bubbly, cheerful and fun-loving and who is becoming a mature young lady. I am thankful God that you have brought us through hard times and will continue to help us grow together.

Katie the Kitten who is sweet as a kitten but can roar like a lion. Thank you Lord for her strong determination, her strong opinions (even if they frustrate me sometimes...wonder where she got that stubborness) and her beautiful smile.

Lord, I Ask, Seek and Knock on behalf of these girls.

I am thankful for a full life. Full of wonderful friends & family.

I am thankful for the opportunity to serve you in whatever capacity you call me to. whether it is cleaning toilets or praying with the girls at Heart Connection or laughing and singing with the kids in Children's church which by the way...I love those kids. They are so full of life. And each one is so different. Some are quiet, some are loud, some are sweet, some not so sweet but they are ALL yours God.

I am thankful for strong Pastors who love you, Lord. Not perfect pastors...But strong, passionate, leaders who want to do things your way even when they fall short sometimes.

And Lastly but most importantly, Lord, I am grateful for YOU. I am grateful you took me out of a miry pit and put my feet on the solid foundation of Christ Jesus...on Jesus Christ the solid Rock I stand all other ground is sinking sand. Thank you for paying my debt on Calvary.

In your Grip of Grace,
Dorothy...

He can make the lame WALK

God this journey we are on together is full of well...how do I say it...full of frustrations. But God you did it again. Just when I think I can't do it anymore, you ALWAYS come through. Thank you for helping me to reach out once again and not allowing me to give up because you NEVER give up on me. You are patient and loving. You are a Good Shepherd. I can not LOVE people the way you LOVE them. I want to...But the GREAT BIG YOU living inside of me gives me everything I need to overcome. "Greater is HE that lives in me than he that lives in this world". I will not give up. I will move forward with YOU. "I press on toward the goal of the upward calling of God in Christ Jesus". Onward and Upward to the High Places.

I don't want to be so easily distracted by these circumstances but that requires me to spend a lot more time with you. You took care of each situation today one by one as I presented them to you. You nudged me when I did not want to do what you were leading me to do. Thank you for the nudge and thank you for helping me to be brave. Give me hinds feet to the High Places...I don't want crippled feet anymore. You can make the lame walk...

LOVE NO MATTER WHAT

So today I tried to reach out to a friend through FaceBook to let them know they were in my thoughts and prayers over a tragedy that happened in their family only to find out that I am no longer her friend on FB. All I could do was cry...Sometimes you just can't make things right. No matter how hard you try and no matter how much you pray, it just does not get fixed. So Lord, I put it back at your feet once again and ask you once again to help me to LOVE. No matter what. No matter how hard. My flesh cries out that it is not fair...But what good does that do. My heart cries out for justice, my mind wants to fight the battle MY way. I want to defend myself and I want to SPEW it all out and not care what anyone thinks or even what you think, God. BUT once again...I am called to LOVE. Love is patient, love is kind, love does not demand its own way...Wow, God this stuff is HARD. I think you might have to do this through me, I don't have it in me anymore. I HURT!!!

Life is but a vapor

Heard of a death of a young man yesterday. Early death...early 20's... I wonder where is he now. Where did he go? What is he doing right now? Did he know you Lord? Did he reject you during his lifetime? Did he think he had "plenty of time for YOU later"? Then I wonder...How is his family? Do they have any peace despite their loss? Do they know you, Lord? Do they want to know you? Or are they just angry at YOU but never serve YOU?

Lord, I want to serve you ALL the days of my life. I don't want my loved ones to wonder where I am when I leave here. I want them to have peace even in their grief. It would be the best gift I could leave them. I pray my family makes a decision to live for you God. If they left this earth unsure of their relationship with YOU, I would be devastated.

Lord, give this family peace tonight, comfort them, and help them to RUN to YOU not run away from you.